Love, Longing, Loss and Loneliness

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Feb 10

You My Home

Everyday… I’ve got to say.
I replay the words you said… Over & over,
Echoing in my head
We sat, Girl, we laughed… On the telephone.
Talking for hours about our day… The weather, whichever,
Moments were our highs and lows
Even though I’m feeling alone… If I only had you in my arms.

Holding you close to me… Holding you tightly.
Then I would feel completely at home.

No matter how far, No matter where we are
The space between doesn’t seem as hard,
Because I know you’re in my heart.
You’re in my heart…

If it’s been a tough day… In our sheets I will lay,
And reread the words you wrote to me…
Because when I’m down, you’re not around
They are as close to you as I can be.

And when I dream… of the next time you will be with me
Holding each other tightly, and never letting go
Then I will feel completely at home.

(Pre Chorus)

(chorus)

Posted 3 months ago

original song, music, spilled ink, poetry, Lyrics,

Jan 6

Secrets

What is it that you are thinking?
I want to know what’s on your mind.
Share with me your darkest secret.
Let me peer inside.

I want to know if I hurt you.
Is it what I said that made you cry?
Please allow me to listen.
Don’t feed me any more lies.

Because there is nowhere to run.
There is nowhere to hide… Please.
Let me stand by your side.

Don’t let what I said fall on deaf ears.
Trust me, I know what it’s like.
I’ve been living in it’s shadow for too many years.
Don’t let it smother your light.

You’re hurting others who care.
Keeping tucked away inside.
Not knowing why you are.
Staring blank, your reply is just a sigh.

Your sigh, girl, is more than I can bear.
Putting on a strong face, and smile.
Please don’t act like you don’t care.
If all you do is sit alone and cry.

You’ll slip into complete loneliness.
If you don’t even attempt to try.
It’s got to be tearing you up in there.
I can see the pain in your eyes.

Posted 4 months ago

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poetry, lyrics, spilled in, music, original song,

Jan 6
Drawing of My Niece

Drawing of My Niece

Posted 4 months ago

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Illustration, baby, charcoal, drawing, original art, art,

Nov 16
Drawing of Dave Matthews

Drawing of Dave Matthews

Posted 6 months ago

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art, dave matthews, drawing, music, Illustration,

Nov 9

Alive Once Again

Three A.M., insomnia stricken…
Would do anything to get some sleep.
A little blonde, living in California,
Catches my eye on the computer screen.

I’m curious, then interested.
God damn I’m nearly blown away.
Skilled no doubt, the words dance from her mouth,
As she expresses the things she may not be able to say.
Now I could be wrong about her.
Maybe I’ll find out some day.

Driving dazed, down the road,
Constructing a chorus in my head.
Repeating the words, over & over.
Until I can write them down with my pen.
And when I did… This is what I came up with.

La-La Lady, You have inspired me…
Made me pick up my guitar and finger a melody…
Once again, once again, once again…
Crazy, I know how this may seem…
But you opened my eyes and allowed me to dream…
Once again, once again, once again.

She’s maybe 23. Turning her dreams into reality.
Hey, man, I totally dig her style…
Seems down to earth, tries to put her friends first,
and will take her chances just to get a smile.
This is what I would like to believe about her.
Maybe I’ll know in a while.

First impressions? well, where should I start? 
Her beauty, talent or her heart?
She’s already a work of art…
She plays the part so well.

La-La Lady, You have inspired me…
Made me pick up my guitar and finger a melody…
Once again, once again, once again.
Crazy, I know how this may seem…
But you opened my eyes and allowed me to dream…
Once again, once again, once again.

Posted 6 months ago

songwriting, Lyrics, poetry, music, original song,

Nov 6

What’s With Me

I should have known, should have realized, when I looked in her eyes.
Should have been smart, not to fall too hard.
Shouldn’t fall apart, I should have fought.
For what I believe… For what I need.
Don’t need her forever hounding me.
But it’s hard to resist, resist her kiss.
She’s the only one I miss, oh, if I had one wish.
And now, I screwed myself.  I’m clueless, still, how.
Yet this life goes on, on & on, until we’re gone.
And that’s the only way, day by day, 
I can keep my mind from going insane.

Why didn’t I know, how did they slip by, those wicked lies.
Shouldn’t be so naive, I should have seen.
Shouldn’t be deceived, by love blinding me.
She left me in a shell of a man.
It happened once, don’t know if I can take it again.

Because my heart, my heart is sore.
And I don’t think, I can take anymore.
But her love was all I had.
And I know in time I won’t feel so bad.
But it takes time, time to deal, for a heart to heal.
So it can feel… Once again

Posted 6 months ago

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original song, poetry, Lyrics, personel, music, songwriting,

Oct 11

Yearning

The desires I have for her are indescribable…
Lust – A craving, a primal instinct…
A thirst & hunger all of it’s own kind.
NO!! No, I am not fine.

A yearning taking over completely, consuming me deeply…
As I would like to be consumed in the depths of her.
To pen this indomitable urge will no way portray what it rightfully deserves.
NO!! No, more words.

We met with the fury & force of a raging hurricane… but we feel no pain.
Down her side dance my fingertips… As I kiss her mouth & caress her lips.
Making my way inevitably inside… Ecstasy neither her nor I can hide.
Thrusting hips… Night blue colored nails draw blood as she rips…
A Trail of fire in my skin as she came – She feels no pain… I feel no pain.

Posted 7 months ago

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poetry, poem, spilled ink, erotica, lust,

Oct 10

Jersey Girl

Little girl from Jersey.
I don’t think you heard me, Say…
I’m so very sorry.
Lover’s I hope we can be.
Is there a way?

In my heart, in my head there is a place for you.
And all the things I said, I spoke the truth
I’ll remember you…
Because, Doll, you did something to me.
You gave me eyes & now I can see.
Everything… Everything…

But now we have to go our separate ways.
And I wish I had something better to say.
Because I’m not good with words – especially goodbyes.
And I’ve found it’s 10 fold when I’m lost in your eyes.
And all the things I dream I could wish.
Just a kiss, just a kiss… The taste of you of my lips.

Years have passed and I stand where we once laid.
An as I look around, everything’s the same.
Except one thing…
So, I sit down on the ground, lay back and rest my eyes.
And as I drift into slumber our past comes alive.
Under the same starry sky.

I get a glimpse of you dancing in the sand.
You glide over to me, and reach for my hand.
Then I understand.
My toes aren’t touching the land.
Still alone I stand,
and..

I know we had to go our separate ways.
And I wish I had something better to say.
Because I’m not good with words – especially goodbyes.
And I’ve found it’s 10 fold when I’m lost in your eyes.
And all the things I dream I could wish.
Just a kiss, just a kiss… The taste of you of my lips.

Posted 7 months ago

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Lyrics, poem, poetry, spilled ink, songwriting, nostalgia, goodbyes, lost love,

Oct 9

Posted 7 months ago

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johnny cash, bob hope, steve jobs, quotes, economy,

Sep 15

Next Friday

So many things I want to say, but I don’t know where to begin.
I know I’ll find a way, but the question is when.
I wish these words would come out a lot easier then they do.
I’m like a little boy lost in a world of you.
I’ll find the words… I’m going to have to
Because if I don’t I might lose you.

And when will I see you again?
Is it just me, or are we more than just friends?
Because I can’t stand to have you be more than two feet away…
From me.

   And I can’t wait until next Friday
   It may not be much and that’s okay
   The only thing I care about is that your there.
   All I care about is that you’re there… Always
   I can’t wait until Friday
   Are you going to be there on Friday?

Two different worlds from which we came,
But all I hear in my ear, girl, is your name.
I sit here in my world, and I’m all alone.
Watching yours turn so slow.
Last night A dream I had, a vision that made everything change.
Now when I look in your eyes, nothing is the same.
If we cross this line, what will lie ahead?
I’ll be leaving soon, what will do then?

   (Chorus)

I don’t know if I can keep denying the way I feel.
I know I don’t want to, don’t know if I can deal.

We became so close in a short period of time.
And now you’re the one I miss when you’re not by my side.

Posted 8 months ago

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music, lyrics, spilled ink, songwriter, poetry,